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Monday, 19 September 2011
Too Much To Say!
I don't even know where to start really! That is the problem with leaving the blogging till so long after events happen. The thing is life has been so busy I haven't had a chance to sit down and write this important blog! not only that it's the fact I don't particularly want to completely revisit a very amazing but terrible time....
So I will start with the fact pretty much from the start of this pregnancy I have been poorly and the more time went on the more I struggled and my body didn't seem to agree with the fact I was growing a life inside of me which is such a demanding thing to happen to your body for a normal person let alone myself. Every day i will ill and struggled was worth it...... Every single second! And even though I am super glad I am not pregnant anymore I do miss having that special amazing feeling of having a child inside of me.
So I had a pretty rough pregnancy but in june/july time things were just getting so difficult! i was swelling up and my chest was pretty bad and worst of all I felt exhausted. I felt like I was being suffercated where my lungs were being pushed up and the pains in my chest were terrible. I spent ALOT of my time in hospital. Infact just over a month previous to having Jayden I spent about a month in hospital with a week inbetween. That is the most time I have EVER spent in there and I hated it with a passion. Not only being away from Chris and Livvy but being stuck in a little room for that long tests even the strongest people.
So anyway I had come out of hospital and the exhaustion was just unbearable. I felt like getting out of bed was so so difficult. My legs and ankles were swollen which made it harder to move anyway. I had a hospital appointment but I wasn't well enough to make it to hospital so Chris had to ge the doctor to come and see me at home. When the lady doc came she did the usual checks and everything seemed ok. Mainly looking at blood pressure as swelling sometimes means pre-eclampsia which is very dangerous for baby and mom. Blood pressure was fine so I just lay on the sofa till the next day where I had swollen up even more and felt awful. Chris again rang the doctors and a lovely man came out. My blood pressure had gone up so I had suspected pre-eclampsia. He told me he would go back to the surgery and call the number I gave him to speak to one of my consultant's at Heartlands hospital to see what they wanted to do. So we waited for a while then eventually got a call from the doctor saying he had spoken to them and they wanted to go there immediately to the delivery suite.
We had poor Livvy to think about too..... I hadn't even packed my hospital bag ready to have our little one! So we were completely unorganised. We threw a few things together and travelled over to Heartlands.
To cut a long story short i had various tests done and my blood pressure checked which had come back down since earlier. The people I saw didn't really know what to do with me due to having CF they seem a bit scared when looking after me! The next day the consultant Dr Barber came to see me. She is the one that overlooked my care on the baby side when I had Livvy. She is a great Dr and is very honest and to the point! She came into the delivery room, took one look at me and said "yes we are going to give you a c-section tomorrow morning, we need to get him out!!" I must have looked bad lol! She did tell me how terrible I looked too which was lovely ha!
So that morning I was getting prepared for surgery. We were warned that we probably wouldn't hear him cry and that as soon as he was born he would be given to the specialist people who would clear his lungs etc if needed and make sure he is ok. We were also warned he may not be able to breath properly on his own as he was so premature and may need to be ventilated.
After many tries to get my epidural in which still felt absolutely horrible and painful whilst high as a kite on gas and air!!! Lol..... they had to put a spinal block in which numbed me pretty much to half way up my lungs downwards. I could not breath i swear. If it hadn't been for Chris I would have lost the plot and panicked. The staff that were looking after me in theatre were fantastic and really made me feel at ease as much as they could. Then the doctor came in and ironically it was the lady that had delivered Livvy! Crazyness! She had been off for 3 weeks and I was her first patient so it was definately meant to be.
Chris sat next to me holding my hand and keeping me calm bless him. I could see in his face he was as terrified as me! So anyway they had cut me open and the midwife that was looking after me told me I would feel pressure and some pulling. Indeed I did feel that. It wasn't unpleasant really just slightly uncomfortable. I was just praying my little boy would be ok when he came out. Then I heard someone say he is out and we heard him!!! It was only a moan and you could hear all the fluid on his lungs but we HEARD him!!!
Where the cot thing was where they worked on him was in the corner out of my view but Chris could see. I was trying to judge what was going on by his face. He looked so scared but tried to put on a brave face so I wouldn't worry too much. They started to stitch me up. Could hear the odd noise coming from the corner where my boy was and I new he was fighting so he could breath. As they were still stitching me up they told me they were going to take him to the NICU nextdoor. They wheeled him past me and stopped for about 15 seconds so I could see him. He was just lay so still with a thing over his face which helps him breath. They said he was ok..... Guess I just had to trust them.....
So Jayden Christopher Moult was born on Friday 29th July at 12pm by c-section 8 weeks early. They say he was 4lb 3oz but they later told us there was a fault with the scales and he was much more likely to have been 3lb 6oz.
We were told time at the NICU will be a bumpy road which will be very emotional. I have to stop now but will carry on soon.
xxx
So I will start with the fact pretty much from the start of this pregnancy I have been poorly and the more time went on the more I struggled and my body didn't seem to agree with the fact I was growing a life inside of me which is such a demanding thing to happen to your body for a normal person let alone myself. Every day i will ill and struggled was worth it...... Every single second! And even though I am super glad I am not pregnant anymore I do miss having that special amazing feeling of having a child inside of me.
So I had a pretty rough pregnancy but in june/july time things were just getting so difficult! i was swelling up and my chest was pretty bad and worst of all I felt exhausted. I felt like I was being suffercated where my lungs were being pushed up and the pains in my chest were terrible. I spent ALOT of my time in hospital. Infact just over a month previous to having Jayden I spent about a month in hospital with a week inbetween. That is the most time I have EVER spent in there and I hated it with a passion. Not only being away from Chris and Livvy but being stuck in a little room for that long tests even the strongest people.
So anyway I had come out of hospital and the exhaustion was just unbearable. I felt like getting out of bed was so so difficult. My legs and ankles were swollen which made it harder to move anyway. I had a hospital appointment but I wasn't well enough to make it to hospital so Chris had to ge the doctor to come and see me at home. When the lady doc came she did the usual checks and everything seemed ok. Mainly looking at blood pressure as swelling sometimes means pre-eclampsia which is very dangerous for baby and mom. Blood pressure was fine so I just lay on the sofa till the next day where I had swollen up even more and felt awful. Chris again rang the doctors and a lovely man came out. My blood pressure had gone up so I had suspected pre-eclampsia. He told me he would go back to the surgery and call the number I gave him to speak to one of my consultant's at Heartlands hospital to see what they wanted to do. So we waited for a while then eventually got a call from the doctor saying he had spoken to them and they wanted to go there immediately to the delivery suite.
We had poor Livvy to think about too..... I hadn't even packed my hospital bag ready to have our little one! So we were completely unorganised. We threw a few things together and travelled over to Heartlands.
To cut a long story short i had various tests done and my blood pressure checked which had come back down since earlier. The people I saw didn't really know what to do with me due to having CF they seem a bit scared when looking after me! The next day the consultant Dr Barber came to see me. She is the one that overlooked my care on the baby side when I had Livvy. She is a great Dr and is very honest and to the point! She came into the delivery room, took one look at me and said "yes we are going to give you a c-section tomorrow morning, we need to get him out!!" I must have looked bad lol! She did tell me how terrible I looked too which was lovely ha!
So that morning I was getting prepared for surgery. We were warned that we probably wouldn't hear him cry and that as soon as he was born he would be given to the specialist people who would clear his lungs etc if needed and make sure he is ok. We were also warned he may not be able to breath properly on his own as he was so premature and may need to be ventilated.
After many tries to get my epidural in which still felt absolutely horrible and painful whilst high as a kite on gas and air!!! Lol..... they had to put a spinal block in which numbed me pretty much to half way up my lungs downwards. I could not breath i swear. If it hadn't been for Chris I would have lost the plot and panicked. The staff that were looking after me in theatre were fantastic and really made me feel at ease as much as they could. Then the doctor came in and ironically it was the lady that had delivered Livvy! Crazyness! She had been off for 3 weeks and I was her first patient so it was definately meant to be.
Chris sat next to me holding my hand and keeping me calm bless him. I could see in his face he was as terrified as me! So anyway they had cut me open and the midwife that was looking after me told me I would feel pressure and some pulling. Indeed I did feel that. It wasn't unpleasant really just slightly uncomfortable. I was just praying my little boy would be ok when he came out. Then I heard someone say he is out and we heard him!!! It was only a moan and you could hear all the fluid on his lungs but we HEARD him!!!
Where the cot thing was where they worked on him was in the corner out of my view but Chris could see. I was trying to judge what was going on by his face. He looked so scared but tried to put on a brave face so I wouldn't worry too much. They started to stitch me up. Could hear the odd noise coming from the corner where my boy was and I new he was fighting so he could breath. As they were still stitching me up they told me they were going to take him to the NICU nextdoor. They wheeled him past me and stopped for about 15 seconds so I could see him. He was just lay so still with a thing over his face which helps him breath. They said he was ok..... Guess I just had to trust them.....
So Jayden Christopher Moult was born on Friday 29th July at 12pm by c-section 8 weeks early. They say he was 4lb 3oz but they later told us there was a fault with the scales and he was much more likely to have been 3lb 6oz.
We were told time at the NICU will be a bumpy road which will be very emotional. I have to stop now but will carry on soon.
xxx
Friday, 26 August 2011
I am ashamed!!!
I am winding up to update my blog but just have to post some song lyrics before i forget! I am ashamed to say I have fallen in love with this song purely due to the fact I feel like this about my husband and my children..... Dedicated to you Chris, Livvy and Jayden.......
[Chris Brown]
You’ve got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
That you keep that smile.
[Justin Bieber]
Yeah, you are my dream,
There’s not a thing I won’t do.
I’ll give my life up for you,
Cos you are my dream.
[Bridge]
And baby, everything that I have is yours,
You will never go cold or hungry.
I’ll be there when you’re insecure,
Let you know that you’re always lovely.
Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now
[Chorus]
One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
[Chris Brown]
You had my child,
You make my life complete.
Just to have your eyes on little me,
That’d be mine forever.
[Bridge]
And baby, everything that I have is yours
You will never go cold or hungry
I’ll be there when you’re insecure
Let you know that you’re always lovely
http://www.hotnewsonglyrics.com/chris-brown-ft-justin-bieber-next-2-you-lyrics.html
Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now
[Chorus]
One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
[Bridge]
We’re made for one another
Me and you
And I have no fear
I know we’ll make it through
One day when the sky is falling
I’ll be standing right next to you
Ohh ohh ohh ohhhhh
[Chorus]
One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Oh nah nah
Oh yeah
Stand by my side
When the sky falls
Oh baby
I’ll be there
You’ve got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
To keep you forever.
Chris Brown Ft. Justin Bieber – Next 2 You Lyrics
[Chris Brown]
You’ve got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
That you keep that smile.
[Justin Bieber]
Yeah, you are my dream,
There’s not a thing I won’t do.
I’ll give my life up for you,
Cos you are my dream.
[Bridge]
And baby, everything that I have is yours,
You will never go cold or hungry.
I’ll be there when you’re insecure,
Let you know that you’re always lovely.
Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now
[Chorus]
One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
[Chris Brown]
You had my child,
You make my life complete.
Just to have your eyes on little me,
That’d be mine forever.
[Bridge]
And baby, everything that I have is yours
You will never go cold or hungry
I’ll be there when you’re insecure
Let you know that you’re always lovely
http://www.hotnewsonglyrics.com/chris-brown-ft-justin-bieber-next-2-you-lyrics.html
Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now
[Chorus]
One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
[Bridge]
We’re made for one another
Me and you
And I have no fear
I know we’ll make it through
One day when the sky is falling
I’ll be standing right next to you
Ohh ohh ohh ohhhhh
[Chorus]
One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Oh nah nah
Oh yeah
Stand by my side
When the sky falls
Oh baby
I’ll be there
You’ve got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
To keep you forever.
Chris Brown Ft. Justin Bieber – Next 2 You Lyrics
Sunday, 7 August 2011
WOWZERS!!!!
There is no way i can update my blog just off my phone. Too much has happened so i need to sit down when i get home from hospital and take time to write everything down as best i can.
This particular time in my life has been the best mixed with the worst things that have ever happened to me. So its important i write it all down for my babies to read and to help me put everything behind me.
All i will say right now is that i know for a fact i am the most blessed and lucky person living on the planet and in the universe right now. I have a husband that has proved more than i ever ever expected and thought he was capable of proving. Chris is the strongest person i know and i love him with all my heart and beyond. And i will also say that i have the 2 most stunning, beautiful children that i have ever seen. Im sure im not biased cos everyone else says they are beautiful too ;o)
So i will finish by saying this is the start of a very long story that covers a month of my life and i will update as soon as i can when i get home.
Chris, Olivia and Jayden Moult you are all the reason why i take my next breath and why i will fight so hard for you all. I love you all so much its overwhelming and i cannot wait for us to start our new family life together....
It wont be long :o) xxx
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Thursday, 28 July 2011
Quick
Just a very quick blog update.... I am currently sat in the room Livvy was born in! I am having major swelling problems all over my body and they don't know why so I am having out baby boy out by C section tomorrow morning.
Just wanna say I love you Livvy and Chris and little Pea for that matter! With all my heart and im praying that everything will be ok.
Xxx
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