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Friday 30 September 2011
Jayden....
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2 YEARS OLD
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Ready...
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Simply The Best!
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Livvy's First Hold
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Home
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Bigger
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Missed Her!
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Meanwhile......
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Monday 19 September 2011
Too Much To Say!
I don't even know where to start really! That is the problem with leaving the blogging till so long after events happen. The thing is life has been so busy I haven't had a chance to sit down and write this important blog! not only that it's the fact I don't particularly want to completely revisit a very amazing but terrible time....
So I will start with the fact pretty much from the start of this pregnancy I have been poorly and the more time went on the more I struggled and my body didn't seem to agree with the fact I was growing a life inside of me which is such a demanding thing to happen to your body for a normal person let alone myself. Every day i will ill and struggled was worth it...... Every single second! And even though I am super glad I am not pregnant anymore I do miss having that special amazing feeling of having a child inside of me.
So I had a pretty rough pregnancy but in june/july time things were just getting so difficult! i was swelling up and my chest was pretty bad and worst of all I felt exhausted. I felt like I was being suffercated where my lungs were being pushed up and the pains in my chest were terrible. I spent ALOT of my time in hospital. Infact just over a month previous to having Jayden I spent about a month in hospital with a week inbetween. That is the most time I have EVER spent in there and I hated it with a passion. Not only being away from Chris and Livvy but being stuck in a little room for that long tests even the strongest people.
So anyway I had come out of hospital and the exhaustion was just unbearable. I felt like getting out of bed was so so difficult. My legs and ankles were swollen which made it harder to move anyway. I had a hospital appointment but I wasn't well enough to make it to hospital so Chris had to ge the doctor to come and see me at home. When the lady doc came she did the usual checks and everything seemed ok. Mainly looking at blood pressure as swelling sometimes means pre-eclampsia which is very dangerous for baby and mom. Blood pressure was fine so I just lay on the sofa till the next day where I had swollen up even more and felt awful. Chris again rang the doctors and a lovely man came out. My blood pressure had gone up so I had suspected pre-eclampsia. He told me he would go back to the surgery and call the number I gave him to speak to one of my consultant's at Heartlands hospital to see what they wanted to do. So we waited for a while then eventually got a call from the doctor saying he had spoken to them and they wanted to go there immediately to the delivery suite.
We had poor Livvy to think about too..... I hadn't even packed my hospital bag ready to have our little one! So we were completely unorganised. We threw a few things together and travelled over to Heartlands.
To cut a long story short i had various tests done and my blood pressure checked which had come back down since earlier. The people I saw didn't really know what to do with me due to having CF they seem a bit scared when looking after me! The next day the consultant Dr Barber came to see me. She is the one that overlooked my care on the baby side when I had Livvy. She is a great Dr and is very honest and to the point! She came into the delivery room, took one look at me and said "yes we are going to give you a c-section tomorrow morning, we need to get him out!!" I must have looked bad lol! She did tell me how terrible I looked too which was lovely ha!
So that morning I was getting prepared for surgery. We were warned that we probably wouldn't hear him cry and that as soon as he was born he would be given to the specialist people who would clear his lungs etc if needed and make sure he is ok. We were also warned he may not be able to breath properly on his own as he was so premature and may need to be ventilated.
After many tries to get my epidural in which still felt absolutely horrible and painful whilst high as a kite on gas and air!!! Lol..... they had to put a spinal block in which numbed me pretty much to half way up my lungs downwards. I could not breath i swear. If it hadn't been for Chris I would have lost the plot and panicked. The staff that were looking after me in theatre were fantastic and really made me feel at ease as much as they could. Then the doctor came in and ironically it was the lady that had delivered Livvy! Crazyness! She had been off for 3 weeks and I was her first patient so it was definately meant to be.
Chris sat next to me holding my hand and keeping me calm bless him. I could see in his face he was as terrified as me! So anyway they had cut me open and the midwife that was looking after me told me I would feel pressure and some pulling. Indeed I did feel that. It wasn't unpleasant really just slightly uncomfortable. I was just praying my little boy would be ok when he came out. Then I heard someone say he is out and we heard him!!! It was only a moan and you could hear all the fluid on his lungs but we HEARD him!!!
Where the cot thing was where they worked on him was in the corner out of my view but Chris could see. I was trying to judge what was going on by his face. He looked so scared but tried to put on a brave face so I wouldn't worry too much. They started to stitch me up. Could hear the odd noise coming from the corner where my boy was and I new he was fighting so he could breath. As they were still stitching me up they told me they were going to take him to the NICU nextdoor. They wheeled him past me and stopped for about 15 seconds so I could see him. He was just lay so still with a thing over his face which helps him breath. They said he was ok..... Guess I just had to trust them.....
So Jayden Christopher Moult was born on Friday 29th July at 12pm by c-section 8 weeks early. They say he was 4lb 3oz but they later told us there was a fault with the scales and he was much more likely to have been 3lb 6oz.
We were told time at the NICU will be a bumpy road which will be very emotional. I have to stop now but will carry on soon.
xxx
So I will start with the fact pretty much from the start of this pregnancy I have been poorly and the more time went on the more I struggled and my body didn't seem to agree with the fact I was growing a life inside of me which is such a demanding thing to happen to your body for a normal person let alone myself. Every day i will ill and struggled was worth it...... Every single second! And even though I am super glad I am not pregnant anymore I do miss having that special amazing feeling of having a child inside of me.
So I had a pretty rough pregnancy but in june/july time things were just getting so difficult! i was swelling up and my chest was pretty bad and worst of all I felt exhausted. I felt like I was being suffercated where my lungs were being pushed up and the pains in my chest were terrible. I spent ALOT of my time in hospital. Infact just over a month previous to having Jayden I spent about a month in hospital with a week inbetween. That is the most time I have EVER spent in there and I hated it with a passion. Not only being away from Chris and Livvy but being stuck in a little room for that long tests even the strongest people.
So anyway I had come out of hospital and the exhaustion was just unbearable. I felt like getting out of bed was so so difficult. My legs and ankles were swollen which made it harder to move anyway. I had a hospital appointment but I wasn't well enough to make it to hospital so Chris had to ge the doctor to come and see me at home. When the lady doc came she did the usual checks and everything seemed ok. Mainly looking at blood pressure as swelling sometimes means pre-eclampsia which is very dangerous for baby and mom. Blood pressure was fine so I just lay on the sofa till the next day where I had swollen up even more and felt awful. Chris again rang the doctors and a lovely man came out. My blood pressure had gone up so I had suspected pre-eclampsia. He told me he would go back to the surgery and call the number I gave him to speak to one of my consultant's at Heartlands hospital to see what they wanted to do. So we waited for a while then eventually got a call from the doctor saying he had spoken to them and they wanted to go there immediately to the delivery suite.
We had poor Livvy to think about too..... I hadn't even packed my hospital bag ready to have our little one! So we were completely unorganised. We threw a few things together and travelled over to Heartlands.
To cut a long story short i had various tests done and my blood pressure checked which had come back down since earlier. The people I saw didn't really know what to do with me due to having CF they seem a bit scared when looking after me! The next day the consultant Dr Barber came to see me. She is the one that overlooked my care on the baby side when I had Livvy. She is a great Dr and is very honest and to the point! She came into the delivery room, took one look at me and said "yes we are going to give you a c-section tomorrow morning, we need to get him out!!" I must have looked bad lol! She did tell me how terrible I looked too which was lovely ha!
So that morning I was getting prepared for surgery. We were warned that we probably wouldn't hear him cry and that as soon as he was born he would be given to the specialist people who would clear his lungs etc if needed and make sure he is ok. We were also warned he may not be able to breath properly on his own as he was so premature and may need to be ventilated.
After many tries to get my epidural in which still felt absolutely horrible and painful whilst high as a kite on gas and air!!! Lol..... they had to put a spinal block in which numbed me pretty much to half way up my lungs downwards. I could not breath i swear. If it hadn't been for Chris I would have lost the plot and panicked. The staff that were looking after me in theatre were fantastic and really made me feel at ease as much as they could. Then the doctor came in and ironically it was the lady that had delivered Livvy! Crazyness! She had been off for 3 weeks and I was her first patient so it was definately meant to be.
Chris sat next to me holding my hand and keeping me calm bless him. I could see in his face he was as terrified as me! So anyway they had cut me open and the midwife that was looking after me told me I would feel pressure and some pulling. Indeed I did feel that. It wasn't unpleasant really just slightly uncomfortable. I was just praying my little boy would be ok when he came out. Then I heard someone say he is out and we heard him!!! It was only a moan and you could hear all the fluid on his lungs but we HEARD him!!!
Where the cot thing was where they worked on him was in the corner out of my view but Chris could see. I was trying to judge what was going on by his face. He looked so scared but tried to put on a brave face so I wouldn't worry too much. They started to stitch me up. Could hear the odd noise coming from the corner where my boy was and I new he was fighting so he could breath. As they were still stitching me up they told me they were going to take him to the NICU nextdoor. They wheeled him past me and stopped for about 15 seconds so I could see him. He was just lay so still with a thing over his face which helps him breath. They said he was ok..... Guess I just had to trust them.....
So Jayden Christopher Moult was born on Friday 29th July at 12pm by c-section 8 weeks early. They say he was 4lb 3oz but they later told us there was a fault with the scales and he was much more likely to have been 3lb 6oz.
We were told time at the NICU will be a bumpy road which will be very emotional. I have to stop now but will carry on soon.
xxx
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